▀ “So save your scissors for someone else’s skin. My surface is so tough I don’t think the blade will dig in. Save your strength, save your wasted time, there’s no way that I want you to be left behind. Dallas Green is life. Dallas Green is you, my love, forever with you in his songs.” That was the first post I ever wrote about my first love, and this is the last post I will write about him on here. We broke up today. It was mutual and amicable, but still very sad. I love him so very deeply, but I am no longer in love with him. We fell out of love with each other a bit ago, and had been holding onto the relationship for comfort and in hopes that love was all we needed to stay together. Time and space forced us to drift and change from who we once were. In many ways my heart is broken: the loss of such a strong love, the ending of the relationship we fought so hard for, the loss of my first love, the change overall. The break up has definitely changed my life, and will continue to change my life as I process it further and eventually move on. However, the change will be no different than the change the relationship had created in my life. For so long I was so extremely happy and so extremely in love that the relationship did nothing but further both of us as people in maturity and respect. We hit our wall though, and despite our best efforts we couldn’t climb over, find a way around, or burst through the wall. I don’t think we gave in, I think we accepted that our love was no longer the love worth deconstructing yourself for. I feel that this break up signfies the time for change in my life. I have officially decided to leave this blog behind. Tonight I went through and made all my final blogs, it’s silly what they are and what they mean to me, but they are important in ways. This blog has helped me through so much over the time I have had it, and I am so glad for the community tumblr has brought me, but now it is time to put this blog and the memories it hold (both good and bad) behind me to make room for more experiences. So if you have anything to say to me or ask me, feel free to send messages or questions for the next few days. I’m not quite sure when I will close the blog up entirely, but it will be soon. Thanks for everything. Remember, there is good in every situation even if it is hard to find. Goodnight, cats. Love and kisses, existence.
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I don’t ask you to love me always like this,
but I ask you to remember.
somewhere inside me
there’ll always be the person
I am tonight. -

F. Scott Fitzgerald  (via musingsinfemininity)

This.

(Source: quote-book, via luellaloves)


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And I thought, “This is the cutest, craziest, most stubborn person I’ve ever met,” and all of a sudden, I needed her. -Go On (via anditslove)
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▀ For you, my first love. Through you I have learned and grown so much. I wish you nothing but the best and the most happiness. I know one day I will look back on our time together with fondness and appreciation, I hope you do the same.
▀ luellaloves: watched this for the second time, still as heartbreaking as the first one of the most heartbreakingly beautiful films and books I have ever seen/read. Amazing cast.
▀ thingsfoundnice: Perfect
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Stay. There are snowflakes on my tongue I want to melt on your inner thigh. -Andrea Gibson (via loveyourchaos)

(Source: iloveyoulessthanpunk, via part-l-ypoison)


▀ I don’t like platform heels, gold, spikes, and bejeweled shoes, but I need these.
▀ me in a dress.
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▀ in many ways this song reflects my life